for my dad

dear my dad.
dad, i know i always make something wrong with you. i know as usual, you're always mad to me. but i don't know why.. my heart was too hate to you. i can't avoid this. you know what you did? you was make me so mad to you. with anything fucking rule you have done. you see? i'm almost stress because of you. actually, i'm happy to be your daughter and sometimes.. i'm sad to see you sick and remembering you have orphaned. but with every mistakes you have done.. i can't keep my emotion. i'm sad, i'm sick, i'm cry. you never care about it. you always keep your selfish. but please,
i just want to make you change your attitude to me. i don't want you leave with every negative things that can make people hate you. please dad, listen to me! i do love you, but now.. i hate you. because you just love my sister! not me!

god he is my beloved man in my life, but sometimes i feel he is like not my father or im not his daughter..

i love you (and i hate you) dad.. :*